Just do me a favor and don’t vilify me anymore. You really were cruel to me a lot and if I fought back it was only to ‘recover’ MY self-esteem. I was never the person to insult you, I took years of abuse from you until I actually struck back. I am ok now, just please don’t create this thing in your mind that absolves you and makes me the demon.
I love you, despite all the bullshit we have put each other through (and yes in the last 6 months or so I am guilty of most of it).
addendum: last year AFTER i got sick, you were very kind to me and i appreciate that. you know exactly the times i am speaking about above, however.
"Whatever it is you think you are you aren't: A good friend, unique, well read, good looking, or smart. Well, now you know.
Well I hate to be the one to bare such bad news, I know it hurts to hear but it's true; You don't mean anything to anyone but me. And even I think that you're blinded by conceit So now you know, The free beer and basement shows don't mean what they did. It's what you do, not who you were, What you wear, where you've been. So do something.
Whoever you think is watching you dance from across the room they aren't. If anything they feel sorry for you because you try so hard. I know it hurts to hear but it's the truth. So you might as well hear it from a friend. You're a has-been that never was. And I know it's mean to say But it's something I've been meaning to say for awhile. You're a has-been that never was or will be." --Owen