I am glad for you. Hope it works out.



Just do me a favor and don’t vilify me anymore. You really were cruel to me a lot and if I fought back it was only to ‘recover’ MY self-esteem. I was never the person to insult you, I took years of abuse from you until I actually struck back. I am ok now, just please don’t create this thing in your mind that absolves you and makes me the demon.



I love you, despite all the bullshit we have put each other through (and yes in the last 6 months or so I am guilty of most of it).

addendum: last year AFTER i got sick, you were very kind to me and i appreciate that. you know exactly the times i am speaking about above, however.

"Whatever it is you think you are you aren't:
A good friend, unique, well read, good looking, or smart.
Well, now you know.

Well I hate to be the one to bare such bad news,
I know it hurts to hear but it's true;
You don't mean anything to anyone but me.
And even I think that you're blinded by conceit
So now you know,
The free beer and basement shows don't mean what they did.
It's what you do, not who you were,
What you wear, where you've been.
So do something.

Whoever you think is watching you dance from across the room they aren't.
If anything they feel sorry for you because you try so hard.
I know it hurts to hear but it's the truth.
So you might as well hear it from a friend.
You're a has-been that never was.
And I know it's mean to say
But it's something I've been meaning to say for awhile.
You're a has-been that never was or will be."
--Owen

i normally stay way from politics on my page, but this is too important.

GO HERE TO MAKE SURE YOU VOTE

Just downloaded Google Chrome, and so far i am loving it. very minimal, much faster, and with the kind of open source firefox has.

also, with Rapidshare and ZShare, i hardly ever even need to use p2ps or torrents anymore. ah, progress. finally.

I officially withdraw my earlier statement that the Maybach Exelero is the most incredible car I have ever seen.

This modification of the morphine molecule results in a drug with higher lipid solubility and ability to cross the blood-brain barrier and therefore more rapid and complete central nervous system penetration, with the result that hydromorphone is somewhat faster-acting and about eight times stronger than morphine and about three times stronger than heroin on a milligramme basis.

ok, now i am doing a blog for one of the radio stations i work for as well. it's extremely low-brow, so read at your own risk.

HERE'S THE LINK.

You have broken me all the way down,
down upon my knees.
And you have broken me all the way down,
you'll be the last, you'll see.

Some fight you gave,
and I pushed you away
from me.

And in the morning when you turn in
I'll be far to sea.

And you have broken me all the way down.
You'll be the last, you'll see.

And what chance have we got
when you've missed every shot
for me?

And in the morning when you turn in
I'll be out of reach.
And in the darkness when you find this
I'll be far to sea.

And you have broken me all the way down.
You'll be the last, you'll see.

--credits to Once for that one

This is the rarest of all occurring atmospheric phenomena.

The picture was captured on the Idaho / Washington border. The event lasted about 1 hour. Clouds have to be cirrus, at least 20K feet in the air, with just the right amount of ice crystals and the sun has to hit the clouds at precisely 58 degrees.

i got to know this guy a little on myspace and i LOVE his music.
his name is mike milosh and he is a classically-trained cellist from canada.
soul in electronic music.
i knew someone could do it.
he has an amazing sense of melody and his voice just dances all over the beat.
his new release, 'iii', comes out on august 25 on !k7 records. don't miss it.
check out his myspace too.